Lunch

 I have never seen a person more confident than the one that knows nothing, and never seen a man more humble than the one that knows much. For the man who knows nothing believes in his heart that he has seen it all and there is nothing else, but the man who knows much understands he has only grasped a fraction of what the universe has to offer.

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